I love you on most days but today I hate you. Yes, we were childhood sweethearts, we held hands and kissed, and you proposed. Now we’re married with a two-year-old and a two-week-old, and I can honestly say I hate you at the moment. I can also say it without girl swatting you or crying. And no, not for one or two good reasons, it’s really more irrationally complex than that.
1. You sleep in when I can’t. Most days when I look over at your rested face snoozing away I just want to punch you, but I hold myself back because that would mean you would wake up and I’d rather not deal with you.
2. You still fit into your jeans. I have shoved my skinny jeans somewhere in the back of my closet and who knows if or when they’re ever going to see the light of day again!
3. You can still enjoy a glass of white wine and sushi but think it’s cute if you keep looking over at me saying, “awwww…you’re probably craving these things, right?” Wow, I love it when you point out the obvious. No, that’s not annoying at all.
And so, in the hopes that this is just a phase, and that I will learn to love you again, I have written you (maybe more for myself) this little letter.
Sara Sadik, a Palestinian/Lebanese energetic mom of 3 puzzle pieces who delivers her distinct brand of warm candid humor with an extra dose of sass in a traditional Arabic coffee cup. Her first book, Finding the Magic in Mommyhood: How to Create the Illusion of Sanity amid Raging Hormones, Sleep Deprivation, and Diaper Rash was released in October 2018 and she is currently working on her first children's series. She has been previously worked for/been employed by The Daily Star newspaper, the U.N. Follow Sara's journey on her blog: www.sarasadik.com